Then Live Between the Lines

When my eye holds only angles

They suck thought out between

the lines

Being lost here somewhere is my moment

Where paint-flow washes out my mind

Go Ahead, Believe In Coincidence Instead

My writing corner, it’s ceiling light went out

It’s been six months

Here I am, Your avatar, amused

It’s back

In the midnight, the only night

As I sat here and cherished the dark’s dancing candle light

Chocolate Darkness

When darkness is thick

Creamy and sweet

Your tongue is alive

It climbs up your feet

All wrapped in the moment

A being of taste

Is it what you are now

From what you have faced?

It Just Happens

The Wayward Spirit

By

M. L. Redford

the wayward spirit wafts in
through the window when the patterns of weeks, months passed, at last,

let go and shift
she moves about the room like Franny Glass making one or two things

flutter a bit, and is gone
out past the opposite shoulder as I turn in to see what I hear

to notice things
in the room which were always there but hadn’t been noticed for weeks

or maybe months
and which had obviously been there for a purpose, staring through the books

on the shelf to find
a forgotten bookmark, an absent fold, maybe a latterdaymexicanpink

autumnal ritual –
seven parts revelationinitiation and fifteen parts flutterbybestowal –

curiouser and curiouser
are the ways of the spirit: if I follow, will I flutter, will I perch or will I fall?

either way I’ll find
the pink of gist and need to meditate before I waft or get stolen

but the spirit talks
of grounding, without talking, for she is no airy/faeree: the meaning disappears

the more you look
but in looking at the unfindability you discover all the meaning for to see:

body, soul and beauty
but no room at the inn for language, ‘you can speak a hundred languages

if you want but
you’re never as wise as the illiterate who speaks with love in her heart’

she says, without a single word
but thought of a hundred languages smaller than the stars which float away;

the language of Waywarduese
butterflies about all over the points, and all of those points held

in one wing-spread,
colourful and puckering hold, sprinkled and dlappled like rain

Oh!
Can I have it?
Is it for me?
It’s for me?
It’s for me!
It’s Mine!
You stole it from me!
I’ll be generous and
share it with you
if you let me keep it.
Please

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Fortune

For the tune or
Fortune
Being alive
Is music

A Self

What Self sees beyond
Chaotic fate
Breathing in life now
Every sigh
A clean slate

Purpose

In irksome hours
As time drips
Sometimes sometimes
Your frowning
flips

A Moment

Daring
Wonder
Notice
Careing

Graceful

Graceful
Death dances
Me
Twirling
Tripping
Laughing
Tears flying
Toward living
Toward

The World

A lab
A test
Of what’s
Ineffable
Test results
For courage
A blood test
For serenity

Love to Disagree

Mix it up
Us who
Disagree
To care dilutes
The care
About
Beliefs

A Quest

Left behind
Unfinished
When I die
What if
I’m reborn?
I’ll give it
Another try

Twinkle

Catch a twinkle
Anything’s an eye
As you adore and speak
Your heart
Inanimate things
Reply

Fierce

A fierce affection
Is it
Cause and effect
Or elusive unknowable
Like soul things
That grow

Practice

A soul is called
“The Witness”
Confused with
“The Creator”
What if each an
Artist?

Infinity

In city skies
All wounds and scars
The infinite
Is fifty stars

Artifice

Smiles and eyes
Tell
These stories
Our souls
Devise

Carry

Ether gels up
Like whipping cream
Making real
The fluid dream

It

I complicated it
with
A thin cut slice
of juicy wit
For
A simple bite of it

Who’s truth?

Maybe
Can be
Twisty
When it
Comes to
My own
History

Laugh

If life
Is a joke
Who has got
The giggles?

Luxury

The greatest luxury
Purpose’s grip
Like love’s

Cravings

Soft frayed reality
Mended with yellow thread
Craving some supernatural
To live outside my head

Profound

Desire for sublime
This need for some profound
The tartness of serenity
Could make the world
Go round

Good Life

Life without apology
Condemns my physiology
Till I die happy

Political

In a dramatic world
Of pennies and lies
Each pebble of truth
Bricks compromise

Being Held

Life of my life
Flows unstoppable
I flow gently with it
Relaxing allowing
Sweet new beginnings

 

Invisibles

The you and you and you
Elusive different
Yet the same
You
The invisible you you you
Sometimes argue?

You

Your friendship
To me
Sanctuary

What If

You slowly sink into Life
The Life that is your Life
Whatever it is you are
You are alive
In it
It may be
Aliveness
Wellness
In you
In me

Fill the Room with Your Joy

The color of joy
Joy’s depth
May be pigmented
Joy’s spaciousness
Carved out
Filled first
Created expanded
By corrosive sorrows

Feasting

Ripple rhythms
Taste the breeze
Smell this moment
Read beauty
Hear your name
Unclench Desire
Feast your attention
Satisfy

Blindfolded or Bored

Surprise
Cooks in hot
Huge Vats of
Unpredictable
Surprise!

Stormwalker

Pet the storm
kiss the wild sky
Play the wind
You fall inside the rain
Rolling with that thunder
Dance into the hurricane

Worth Seeing

Higher stakes
Restacked odds
Character testing
Twisted plot
In real life
enthrall your soul
At the edge
Bitten nails
From your adventure
Journey movie

High Joker

My own usual
Thinking story habits
Ways of cowardice
Till I name them
Beat me

Alive

Interest and attention
Keep me alive
Meaning caring
Build my home
Animals like me
Create this world
I water the desert
With my heart

Soul Food

Layers of lifetimes
butter
Ways of living
Syrup
Stacks of life
Nuts
Choose your flavor
Bacon
Multi-friuted lives
Whipped cream

*

 

Perfection

An instrument
Desire
This scale
Twinkles
Measuring stick
Suddenly
To dare
Lightning breath
A tool
Application
Moments hung in air

*

*

An Open Eye

People are asses
So diverse
Stunning breathtaking deadly
Acts of God
Just like our mother
Earth

Design

Mountains jet up
By design
Bored with Kansas
Explode red-hot paint
Lose the cool Colorado
Slash the canvas
On land and on psyche
Welcome to Oz

*

Dangerous Beauty

Life sculps
Transformation
Canyon drops
Sink holes
Towering cliffs
Sixteen foot waves
Deadly venom fangs
Killer deserts that flower
Heroes and psychopaths
Transformation

 

 

StoryTelling

Embarrassing whipped into fascinating
Chemistry fermenting magic
Trasforms the fundamental
Value of matter

*

Rip

scratch and sniff sky

finally cracks

fragile brittle ripped

blue brown paper sack

*

 

this theater

Magnificent

Orderly

Discord

Playing

Death out

*

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World of Personcraft

An epitome

Individual curiosity

Lotteried kill sets

Oaths fall-downs

warped twisted intact

Personality chosen

Sides

Level ups death

Playing me

Like you

Into some being

New

 

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Shadow

Countless
Watch the shadows
While they are not seen
Patterns of the mysteries
Lives and In-between
*

Communion

 

Feast on dreams and verbs

 Round glows festivus

Burn your dreams for firewood

Plucked by minds to smell

A dream to bite and chew

Washed the etherial dirt off

shucked

Peeled

Cut into  bite size chunks

Chopped

sauteed

The flesh of juicy dreams

 Invite your friends to eat

Harvest more from your fertile souls

Surrender bits

 For composting

*

Music Dies?

Beauty for beauty’s sake

Is free from the singing soul

While the body’s at stake

Lifeblocks

Brick by brick

Before building I make

brick by brick

Every solid symmetrical

Brick by brick

Each un-squared crumble-prone

Brick by brick

My precious bricks

Healthy Soul of the City

Soul blood runs in art

Beats in playing dazzled

Painted sculpted city heart

*

 

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Artist

Sometimes I didn’t die

Destiny breathed sighed

Wiggled the underestimate

Got comfortable inside

*

 

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Limits to the Five Senses?

A sense of time, what sense is this?

A sense of vision, no?

Vision Touch Hearing Smelling Taste

A sense of smell, now mean it like visionary vision

A sense of vision. What?

If vision can be expanded to the imagination

If vision has a passport to the future, but

A sense of hearing… Them voices you mean?

Why hold back the other senses from expanding?

What’s the expanded form of sense of touch?

Good taste may be yummy to all the senses

Our senses our sense of self or sense of selves

Why is only visionary rewarded esteemed healthy?

Hear into the future or imagination, smell feel

Taste these  results

Feel how it will feel

Hear it’s voices

Fall in love

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Out of Sync
Out of Sync

Some Inner Outer Beings Artfully Synced-Waywardspirt Art
Inner Beings Outer Beings Artfully Sync

 

 

 

*

Pulling Ideas

 Sometimes I

Take a stroll

Take the hoe

Or carry a basket

Through my idea

Garden

*

 

Writing on the Beach

 

Open window trailing words

Blue chemistry falling views 

Gleaming explosions gusts of worlds

Wisps of stillness

 Enchantment twirls

Life blows in

Inspirations waves

Smashes hurricane

To the page

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Wide Open Space

Abandoned

 

Paradox

 

Scars

Make me human

Scars

Tell my story

Scars

Give me character

Scars

Don’t define me

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Stairway

Stairway

To heaven

Or

Stairway

From hell

Depends

Where you start

And how far

You fell

*

 

 

Curves

 

We

The lovliest

Curves

In the

Galaxy!

 

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Painted Days

Some mornings

Need More color red

Afternoons more Bright blue swirls

Yellow stars of expectation

The color palette’s yours

Abstract

*

Obstacles

Don’t feel it

Not today

Too much to do

 Look away

Sleeping doesn’t satisfy

Watching isn’t bliss

I need to be a part of things

There’s no way out of this

*

It Just Does

He makes you

Belive the sun

It shines for you

All night

The crossroads is

It’s true

It is

Just not here from him

To you

Return It

Borrowed to be

This to do list

Of what

  Why

 A story of me

Ways

Unquestioned reasons

A copy

You

Twirling

Around the sun

with you

What fun

What fun

What fun!

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Earth

us

art dying heart Waywardspirit

Out!

Closeted beings

Asleep in your bed

Body’s un-life

Crouched starved smothered head

 shriveled 

Dying – undead

 

Posted hung secret

Collectively held

Bodies melt to skeletons

The smell the smell

The smell!

Basic

Breath of life

Breath of art

How do you

Tell the two

Apart?

Fill your mouth

With yummy life

Breathe your soul

With what?

Delight

Dinnertime

To consume the beauty of the moon
Like cheese of light
On bread of quiet
Every night

Dinnertime

Misplaced

When

Misplaced genius

Swallows the sun

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Then

Misplaced evil may

Swallow a black hole

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What’s misplaced?

 

Ways to 42

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Then maybe each particular individual variation is a twist in a good story. Since every good story is about conflict of interests and growth from making growing choices then conflict of interests it’s totally a basic high quality story ingredient. So we would story- starve without our differences.

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Just for the record. No diversity no story, no Saturday cartoons.

Then there is this other wonder. To just call the other interest, not my own, the guys who want some really no-way things evil could be really dumb or maybe just developmentally at a certain level. Like the ewww girls level. The boys have cooties level. Quite age appropriate even. Maybe part of the meaning of life is that as a cultural being we are age appropriate.

Then, if so, what developmental level in me and my species comes next? What are some of the possible new ingredients for tasty satisfying story foid? Are they an acquired taste like caviar? What do I pay to get them? Where? How? Where do I find a Why and learn to cook it?
Wait, that’s the seed of every new story vegetable. Maybe, it’s for planting.

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Would you, if you could, plant and grow a story vegetable garden?

What do healthy home-cooked stories taste like?

Do “my” stories create and add up to my “me”?

 Other wonders:
Are there GMO stories?
Organic stories?
Mass stories?
Hydroponic stories?
Poison stories?

Mystery Wrapped in an Enigma- I Witnessed an Imaginary Story

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Wondering Laid To Rest

Two makes language. Two communicates.
Sad, I thought, when my sister hollered up the stairs: An airplane just crashed right into a building!
I don’t watch news.
Oh, my god! Another airplane just crashed into another building. Just now!  Just now!
My mind flips into mode. I don’t react. I ask. What is going on?
My newborn is laying next to me, where I’m reading. I look at my tiny baby asleep safe on our shared bed. I gently snatch my precious two-month-old into my arms head for the stairs and march down with her nestled to my chest. I’m fixen to set to translating this language of two.
What is being said here?
But I lost my brain and train of thought waiting for the firefighters to rescue trapped people form that crash, to evacuate the first building. Two buildings side by side airplane wounded, bleeding smoke.
Tell me people got rescued. Common firefighters get up there already! Get up get out.
It’s about time for an update. Suspense isn’t joking.  Are the people out of danger?  Like when baby Jessica was in the well. I’m not sure I can stand them in there any longer when my body feels a backbone crushing from the bottom up collapsing me one vertebrae at a time. It disintegrated and went up in a cloud of dust I can’t breathe.
They didn’t have time to get out! They didn’t have time to get out! All those people. All those firefighters. I just commanded them to get in there! They did. They didn’t get out!
They didn’t have time to get out looped my brain.
I rebooted it. It turned to rescue people charred by the other plane. No way such collapse would happen again. It was a fluke. It was only a fluke. People will get rescued this time. This building will hold as buildings do. So get em out.
Get out!
My inner voice shouts. Hurry! It works as much as cheering a team playing a game on tv at making me feel better.
Nothing feels good enough and I can’t just sit here.  Scouring the foot of the building hoping to see people come out is almost useless at so far off a screen view. Parched thirst for safety turns desperate like desert heat and blazing sun. The firefighters are in there. That’s no wet enough news. The spot on the ground I’m scrutinizing for exit movement liquefies. The tower squats down, shrinks, disintegrates, plunging my soul with it into a pile of rubble erupting ashes and dust of hope. Nothing makes sense now.
I look down at what I discover in my arms. Future in the baby face nuzzled at my breast vanishes. I can no longer imagine milk ever flowing out for her, again. There is no world now. No world for her to live in.
I ghosted back upstairs, put my sleeping child down in her un-safe spot on the bed, then went to find us some safety in a stillness, a quiet surrender to what is. Letting go of what I think and feel-a hopeless end. A world.  Allowing something that just liquified and collapsed to begin to regenerate or reconnect in me, then to my world.
What desperate heart-piercing scream erupts in these two molten crushing voices?
I sit and search, finally melting into the stillness where life is.

Till I’m wretched out of a concentration maintained fragile focus by my sister. Another airplane hit the pentagon!
Goddam! War-cries explode into being inside me. Instead of lighting up with those, I flee to a quiet place to put out the fire and stitch the world back together.
Later the story of the plane down in a field jerks my mind the other way. That one did something to me.
I imagine my people taking out the pilot and going down with the plane. Finally, I don’t feel bound and helpless. My hero’s, my people, succeeded. They did stuff for me. I feel like my fellow citizens and some pretty sacred symbolic place got rescued.
The Brave. The cost! Imagining that person, those people, instantly facing death, trusting each-other, banding together, standing up, thrills me and cancels out the already-in-the-grave feeling of helplessness. At the last-minute choosing to go down with the airplane in a spot were no one else would be hurt, fired up hope again. These are my people! Fiction or not.
Then I thought of the hijacker.
The contrast for him. Alone. Thwarted. Failed. The creeps of failure along with death. The guy or gal who may have, according to the speculation, took that plane down dies a glorious death while even the children on that flight, doomed, where not enslaved and twisted into instruments of more destruction. This is a victory even in death-or something like that.  Then I thought this is what really matters to me-to people.
One hijacker had the worst possible death. He died hopeless, a failure, crushed by letting down what he was willing to die to uphold. So, what was he upholding that mattered that much to him, then? What band of brothers did he feel like he betrayed? My emotions settled here, and everything started to make sense. This kid knew when he boarded the plane that he was going to die. He couldn’t chicken out. He couldn’t afford to really see one human being on that plane with him. No person could be more cornered or desperate, and sad. I wept for him. Then, I wept for his fellows.
When memorials were held, I scheduled my own. I’m already feeling like an American about my own American dead. So, I don’t focus there, were everyone else is already showing up. For each memorial, I brought a flower, to take time and felt the grief for each hero of a cause I don’t understand. And for his mother. For a kid compelled to shout-out that blood shrill for help. I don’t understand it. The kid, I figure, really didn’t understand it, either. We are equally lost in the world him and I. He stood for something just like my heroes. He was a person. He died failing, or triumphant. But that wasn’t what I wept for. I wept for the time he passed a beautiful American girl on a New York street and didn’t allow himself to see her beauty and love her, because he might have to kill her. She is them. This is not for me. Bitter tears dripped for the hours he spent at the airport, then on that plane looking at children, babies, couples in love, not seeing this was for him. Not seeing himself in them. I wept for his looking yet not seeing community, only death.

It took me a few years to tell another person after that first person I told. She looked at me like I’d swallowed the devil whole and alive. It doesn’t matter that I don’t agree with Osama Bin Ladin, even if he is not framed, but I let my heart try to hear the people he speaks for, is blasphemy. My position made me shake all over, but I can’t just pretend I feel different.
When Osama may (or may not) have been killed. I take it hard.
Every time the subject or name of Osama has come up for the last decade or so, I handle it by imagining Jesus getting accused. I don’t know anything, but he is my friend because I made a choice to listen to and honor him with my thoughts. I don’t know what he is saying, I’m just listening.
He just got crucified.
While my community celebrates, grief crushes me. I cry on my walk. Grief floods me making lunch, on my way to pick up my kid, while I play Runscape with my online friends, but I don’t talk about it to them. While walking off the feeling of indigence over my country taking-out my friend for me, my walking buddy Lois brings up the politics and his death. A lump grows and grows in my throat choking up tears I can’t hold back.
I lost my imaginary friend, today. Yet the grief is mostly over the idea of celebrating it.


Daily Prompt
: Mystery Wrapped in an Enigma

Weekly Photo Challenge- Imaginary Friends

Waywardspirit Art

Trees
My friends
Fairies inspiration
Living pets
Hugging company

Weekly Photo Challenge- Companionable

Inner
Mind
Playing tennis
With a
Holy ghost
A heart
A pet

In here
Somewhere
Fun
Wonder
Companionship

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Weekly Photo Challenge: Companionable

Imperfection-A Poem

Human Perfection

Imperfection’s part of love

Wabi sabi‘s story of

Frayed edges of insane

Being ecstasy and bane

Cracked heart chipped cup

Shattered then not giving up

Hero and villan of our tale

We’re  all the same

 Be real

 cherished

Evolving imperfection

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By Edward. Original painting  at Austin Discovery School.The Road for Transport-A Poem

My Most Precious

Willowy sapling Attention

Blown away

Oft transplanted

Run over

Mowed

Uprooted

You may be

A Presence of redwood ent

More than shade fruit or would

Transport-A story

It wasn’t the crush, or a temptation. Her shape and bright color captivated me. But more than that, and deeper. The choice is already made. Discovered this the first time I lay eyes on my iMac.

What is this?

The sales guy gave me the info to back up my preference. The colors enchanted me and fueled mysterious passion. It was so hard to pick one. The Steve Jobs story of exile and come-back woke my asleep. The sudden reinvigorating of the market and turn of share. When I stood close that wind of change, stands  my hair on end. I feel it blow. Right there in Best Buy, in the isle, next to the iMac display it blows.

Should have known by then, that choices click into place without explanation. Logic is not banished. It just lives in the other world. I invite her blindly back, slow, by comparing prices and waiting three days to bring my love home with me.

I wanted blueberry. Strawberry was the only refurbished model at Best Buy. That was back, way back before the Apple Store or the Apple Story.  In the days of three-point-something-percent market share Apple. When Apple still allowed Best Buy to carry her precious babies. More than the sum of its parts, love at first sight, experienced not described. Love got me. A love story told me.

To compromise with my wallet, I bought a refurbished strawberry iMac rev C. It was three hundred dollars higher than a way-more-options PC, even so.

After I brought Strawberry ShortMac home, two sample chapters of a Steve Job’s story found me. Couldn’t afford the book. That was all I needed.

I received a blueberry printer cover  in the mail after ordering a strawberry one from Epson. My taste for blueberry, satisfied. Having two printer covers is luxury endowed. What else can I upgrade with?

I download anything Mac compatible that did anything I might want, and didn’t have. install, try, it. The thing was a lemon. It had issues. I fixed it or called tech support, or both every week. Finally the tech support dude, asked me what I was doing to my computer. Strider wasn’t  always there, but I always asked for him, cuz he led you through a Lord of the Rings quest as Malady till your iMac worked again.  The guys back at support finally asked why I installed all those patches when the machine was working fine. They were mystified. I wasn’t satisfied.

The software it came with was all good but, I was swept away with upgrading. I wanted it to do things. To do something I didn’t know what, but it was irresistible, to try to find out.  That and surfing the net. My computer is the bomb. I love it. I play Nanosaur and Bugdom. My kid and I bought Bugdom before it came with all rev D iMacs. Then, we upgraded Nanosaur.

Chat rooms I discovered are dangerous. After three days achat, I vow to never return.

I love iMac so much, sometimes I just stare at her.

When I sat and just look, at this pink form, noticing it, pink love and wavy feelings bubble up then spout like pink gold, Texas tea. I noticed this and sometimes just sat on the bed staring at my iMac for the joy of the delicious feelings that came up. She was my first computer. I’d been hurt-bored by the sea of old sandstone hardware. She though, is gleeful to behold.

Sometimes I’d look at other beautiful things. The angles of my rustic pinewood chair, just so in the light were I’d set it to sweep the dining nook. It’s beauty makes everything soft, the world shimmer. Swept air tastes me, time stands still, the feeling delivers me to the glory my  iMac feels of. The floor is clean, a vast place to sit and be eternally swept away. So there I sit and let it. My iMac is happy. I’m happy, and there will there be upgrades for her, that really do stuff. The thought feels like a first encounter. Yes!

Again, pointless love at first sight thought.  Feeling rushes crashes on me like the surf.  New cool upgrades! I wonder what they will be. I sit in that meditation while a love for something that I want, that feels human, maps a place in me that has always been there. Steve Jobs and Apple are making something I can’t live without. When I checked out the newest stuff though, it was not there… There was noting I couldn’t live without. I was pretty happy with my Mac and printer, anyway.

Old iMac and older
Old iMac and older (Photo credit: goron)

This kept happening.

Meditation gets intense: iMac, Steve Jobs, Apple, making something for me surges up like candy ocean. When I stay there in the feeling intensity billows like clouds of light making it with lightning. They turn into a river of gratitude for this thing I want that Apple is making for me. It about bursts my chest, till I let it strike me, while I focus on Steve Jobs making this, and flow it to him. Then just like that chaos storm turns river. Washed through intense emotions of rushing light serene flowing, a delicious river in an artery of gratitude to the guy, who is making something for me.

Almost every time I meditate it happens. The feeling, this delight about the new something. It tumbles my feelings into explosive gratitude firing up water turbines, shooting a six-foot cable of light at me. I focus it on Steve Jobs and Apple. Like focusing on the feeling of being in love, with delicious electric current flowing fast as light yet still. A pre-emptive strike of ferocious gratitude. I sit with it till the fireworks turn off.

Multi-colored iMacs thrill me. I kept the folded pictures in my school bag. I can look at it when I want. Not because I need a new computer. The picture induces idolatrous transports like porn.

For a months this happened a few times a week. Then less. After a while I could look at my iMac and focus and nothing would happen.

Other things came up and turned into tornadoes and reflected different places. None felt like a heavenly river of light though. And every year even after the years of the experience dwindled, I’d check out what the hell I was expecting and still don’t find anything earthshaking at Apple.

Bought my second iMac.  Nothing special Apple is making for me happened. She is my friend. And I figure she chose to come home with me. She and I bond and enjoy each others company. My new mac is my friend, too.

Then, last year, I got an android smart phone. Blasphemy. I wanted an iPhone. This phone fell into my lap just when I needed it bad and had no other way.

A few weeks later, I’m out with my phone in hand walking in a fascinating wood feeling connected to the world in a friendly intimate way by my phone. A whisper from the Earth’s every voice resonates low in me. Wonder strikes my inner, deeper echo place. Not lightning struck, voice of the world deep rock struck.

Oh, so this is it.

Hmmh no wonder!

It makes no sense.

It makes perfect sense!

Ha! This is what all that advance gratitude was about!

Oh, I love my android, and the World it holds in the webbed palm of my hand.

I love my friend, my phone. I smile when I think of Steve Jobs.

I never met, never saw him. Never wrote and mailed, or talked to him.

One day though, my heart broke in an instant as I raked last years leaves in midsummer Texas heat. Grief torrents and whips me like a blizzard without provocation. Sinking to a log on the ground I weep like a child. My parter thinks I’m crazy for suddenly putting down the rake in subdued grief.  Sitting, there, I cry bitter tears for half an hour. Something about my iMac and a dear friend has died. I can’t explain it.

Next day I find out.

Steve Jobs
Steve Jobs (Photo credit: Kashmir Global)

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Five A Day

Daily Prompt: Five a Day

You’ve being exiled to a private island, and your captors will only supply you with five foods. What do you pick?

I am vacationing on this private Earth island.

Been here for a while.

So far I have bought into the limited.

You will only supply me with five foods a day now will you?

Well that is not good enough. Not anymore.

I am not your captor.

Five a Day

Here is the list of what I am having:

All five food groups each for each of my five bodies every day

Cooked and served please

Spirit Body

Mind Body

Physical Body

Emotional Body

Body of Work

Waywardspirit-Body Support

We want Five a Day!

We need Five a Day!

We get Five a Day!

Any Questions?

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We take care of ourselves and each other.

No compromise.

Thank You for your kind support Facilitator.

Life is Good.

Trading Places/Happy Happy Joy Joy!

What Everyone Needs

I’m so wanting to believe in people-including the weaker sex.  The tits-bated weaker sex.  The devoid of reason and control by tits, lured to their death by mermaids, trapable weaker sex.  I’m wanting to believe they are not a mistake.  Girls-next-door, church lady or stripper, it’s a continual, universal wonder.  What’s up with men and tits, woman or whatever?

I’m wondering.  Wondering and asking for four years now.  I always get answers.  So what  then?  What?

Looking at my breasts in the mirror, to me, is about as enchanting as looking at my hands without a manicure.  At least done nails thrill me like adorable outfits. I love looking at my outfits, any outfits.  Fashion, outfits, hair, makeup, yummy costumes captivate me, but not bare tits.  Tits in lift up lace or leather?  Hell yeah.  It’s the leather.  Trust me, it’s the design, the angles, the style shaped around the tits, tits in a bodice not tits themselves. For sure, not my pretty tits.  Not mine, not anyone’s.  But really, much less my own.  Breasts are for decoration, as far as visual pleasure.  That’s it for me.

Breasts and feminine beauty make me feel lovely and captivating when I see them.  I never want to touch them.  Except maybe out of curiosity, or the softness of the fabric they are tightly laced up in.  When I see it, it makes me feel: That is for me!  I am this beautiful.  Same reason I love romances.  It’s how it makes me feel about me.  It’s about me.  It’s how I feel romanced, loved, worshiped, adored.  Tits have almost nothing to do with it, except the feeling seeing them gives me that mine are beautiful.  That I am all this beautiful.

Men though, they go retarded instantly over any pair of tits.

Yeah, I don’t trust men.

There is just something sinister in their weakness for tits.

Not only chaste wifely woman think so.

Why do guys always try to get a twenty-dollar dance for  ten?

Oh, I so hate that!

It’s so insulting.

I know.  It’s belittling.

I just turn around and walk away.  I won’t even deal with that kind of customer.

I know, it just brings you down.  It devalues us as dancers.

Yeah, it makes me so mad.  How would he feel it he wasn’t paid for his work?  When ever I go for that stupid deal, I just feel not worth full price.

Yep, ruins your whole night.  They keep insulting us with stupid offers.

Grabby guys and ten-dollar guys, the worst!

I don’t know, but what’s up with men in general?

A tits-switch flips their brain cells off.

Just like that. You can’t trust it.

I want to. But.

Oh, god, I know!

I buy into Michelle O’Donnell’s view that God or Allah, or Universal Evolutionary Impulse, or Whatever,  did not make the obvious mistake. I mean didn’t make a mistake (even the obvious one) when men were created or wired or whatever, wrong.  Wrong.  A mistake.  But Life doesn’t make mistakes so….?

I mean when I love someone, any other flexed biceps are irrelevant.  There is actually only one man in the world.  This wonderful  utopia doesn’t seem to apply to men.  Even when they sing about it, cuz it’s what the stronger sex wants to hear.  Or something.  I don’t get it.

This question had a lot of chances to be asked.

Wow, this guy is not asking me to have sex for money!

Wait, he is.  Who or what do you think I am?  Pause.  I defer to the mind of “God” on this matter.  I understand there is a bigger truth I do not see.  I defiantly do not see it!.  I trust men are created right, for a reason and not a mistake. Takes deep breath. Sighs.  I need help.

No thanks for your kind offer.  I dance.  That’s all.   I only dance and the laws apply.

The question burns like the bright incandescent lamp that always goes out.

My wtf idea of men, is not the truth about men.  But I don’t know what the truth is.  I really don’t.  It’s super annoying.

No, you can’t touch.

Little Tommy, you can’t touch Little Betty that way…

But that day, that one day, everything changed.

It was a normal day. The ten dollars left in my left fitted jeans’ pocket feel good.  I had paid my bills and paid off all that debt. I’m ten dollars ahead and ready to start saving. Yeah.

I’m in the zone dressing to go out running when a glance up at my topless reflection in the bedroom mirror captivates me.

I glance, in passing, in the mirror its my tits.

Those. Yes!

Tits! It’s a instinctual wild animal reaction. My whole body shouts out rippling joy.  Joy’s crashing waves of smashing euphoria irresistible pleasure.

The mirror’s treasure, edible bliss!  I must have.  I must touch, now.  Reaching where no does not exist.  Water after dry days in desert intensity, this cool waterfall of deliciousness palm trees shade smiles all for me to swim in taste, feel with my whole body, tongue electrified, lightning stricken mind, on divine fire, missile target smitten emotions lunge at all this satisfaction just for me.  For me!

Oh wait, I better something… as I leap, one arm reaching grasping for heaven, the other reaches for the bill in my pocket. Here!  Take it!  I must touch!  It’s all I have!  Take it, please!

If I had 500, I would say the same thing. Or a thousand. Or five thousand. Or whatever…A man and a woman performing a modern dance.

Then.  My reflection is a reflection.  I am myself again.

Round breasts that project almost horizontally
Round breasts that project almost horizontally (Photo credit: Wikipedia)

The earthshaking  pleasure, in a river of chocolate I taste with every pore of my body, and the vast space of tasted mind, the ease the universal delight of dessert, tastable delights walking around everywhere in my whole world vanishes.

I don’t’ know how anyone can live, or not live, like that.

No words suffice for the world men live.

Goddam God!  No mistake made!  Question answered.  Got it.  Okay.

The intense rushing cascades of joy from just seeing and feeling, wanting to touch!

Never felt anything even remotely like it.  There are no words.  Nothing comes close.  My emotions are just as intense and delightful, but its even the same taste bud.  Indescribable heaven of physical desire.

I don’t even understand how men handle this so exceptionally well.  I, I couldn’t handle it.  I’d go around tasting everything, begging, borrowing and stealing, more, more!   What a wonderful world!  Wow God.  You knew what you were doing.  What a sexy world!

I understand now why a man would feel like he is hungry and being deprived of all this amazing food.  It sits there wasted while he starves. He steals it, of course!  What starved person wouldn’t.  It’s stupid like: “A mans steals a loaf of bread and shit goes down.”  I might even have just taken it in that moment.  No handle on restraint, no practice,  no understanding of the harm it could cause to the wonder of beauty dessert.

Hopefully “she” would have been a big enough slut to accept my ten.

Porque yo no respondo!

Because I can’t be held responsible for what I might have done!

…Men are intensely vulnerable, sweet and  lucky.

Creation is fucking awesome.

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Austin Local Flavor – Tourist Guide

Flavor is in relationship. Yummy people! Tasty things. Breathable feelings.

Flavor is a recipe.  Subtle spice, people salt, texture things, color mixed, just so original ingredients, design place flavor.

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Flexible Boundaries

My Mustache
My Mustache

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Made Perspective

The usual staple ingredients are pretty much the same everywhere. It’s the details that delight you. The details of landscape, story, living things.

The flavor of a place.

Local flavor is song of people in their happy places, letting bees buzz.

I keep Austin weird. Enough of us do to cook Austin a creative wild dish for the world to taste once and want to stay.

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Relationship With Our Passed

Places have unique flavor color weirdness. 

wpid-1347889819796.jpgSame with sideways people.

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Perspective

Sideways traditions.

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Writing Shoes

As weird as you really are.

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